A Writer's Ruminations

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It’s just after midnight. I’m reading Winter Trees by Sylvia Plath and listening to Max Richter’s “Memoryhouse” and that feels like the perfect way to start 2014.

James Taylor - Fire and Rain

Seven years ago today, on May 29th, 2006, my father died. It was the most devastating moment of my life. I was sixteen years old and didn’t know how I would live without the man I had always adored. He was my best friend,  offering compassion, support, and understanding when I needed it. I do not just miss him, I ache for him.
His greatest passion was music, and his favorite singer was James Taylor. So I am sharing this song as a tribute to my father. When I listen to it, I will think not of his death but of his life. I will remember the love he gave and the beautiful person he was.
I am heartbroken today, but I will survive. I will read poetry and write and hold on to the people I love. I hurt for all of us who have lost fathers and mothers and friends and lovers and mentors. All I can do is share my story and, in the process, try to connect with others and make them feel less alone. 
Thank you.

“Mother, I have been devastated all my life.”

– Leigh Stein, from “Marooned

“There was an impenetrable ache in that girl.”

– Erri De Luca, Me, You (translated by Beth Archer Brombert)

sincerelyexistential-deactivate asked: As an amateur poet, I'm wondering who are some of your influences as a writer?

I’m influenced (and inspired) by Marguerite Duras, Sylvia Plath, Katherine Mansfield, Virginia Woolf, Clarice Lispector, Lidia Yuknavitch, Willa Cather, Anna Kamienska, Rose Auslander, Ingeborg Bachmann, bell hooks, Audre Lorde, H.D., Helene Cixous, Anna Kavan, Leslie Marmon Silko, Rebecca Solnit, and Eudora Welty. 

Writing is an act of survival for me. If I’m not writing then I am not living. All of these women are mothers to me; they show me how to write, how to live, how to see, how to feel, and, above all, how to create.